[There's only ever been one answer. It's a lonely thing, understanding that. He recalls a conversation when he was still quite young, before he truly knew who Haruaki was instead of "what".
[How long has it been since they had that conversation?
[What time is it?
[Gentle Haruaki. He's fallen asleep far past a good boy's bedtime, some terrible nonsense keeping him awake. His back is turned, but Seimei intuits Haruaki will turn and see him at least three seconds before he actually speaks.
[What time is it?]
You're tired even as you sleep, Haruaki-kun.
dw finally loads again and i barrel into this like a fucking freight train
[ His eyes don't want to open, leaden pressure just behind his lids that begs him to rest– but he can feel himself in that once familiar place, all the stars and planets so close he could reach up and touch them, bellflowers and pinwheels, a bridge over the river of life and death.
Did he die again? Did his soul shatter again, is he on the verge of meeting yet another untimely end?
No. He just fell asleep, didn't he? Later than usual, yes, but...
Haruaki turns over his shoulder, every movement feeling like it must be done through waist-deep mud, and blinks blearily at– ]
Seimei-kun...?
[ Another blink. He is tired. When was the last time he was at rest? ]
[ The last time they met, his memories were far from him. He had nothing on his mind but his desires to be with Sano again, and his ancestor ensured they were fulfilled. Aside from that, everything was blank, a head full of fog and a wandering heart.
Here and now, with all parts of his soul intact– ]
[ Feels strange to hear, when he really hasn't done anything all that impressive yet. There's still so much he has left to achieve, so much he doesn't even know yet. ]
Well, now I feel bad for admitting my own selfish feelings... sowwy...
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[There's only ever been one answer. It's a lonely thing, understanding that. He recalls a conversation when he was still quite young, before he truly knew who Haruaki was instead of "what".
[How long has it been since they had that conversation?
[What time is it?
[Gentle Haruaki. He's fallen asleep far past a good boy's bedtime, some terrible nonsense keeping him awake. His back is turned, but Seimei intuits Haruaki will turn and see him at least three seconds before he actually speaks.
[What time is it?]
You're tired even as you sleep, Haruaki-kun.
dw finally loads again and i barrel into this like a fucking freight train
Did he die again? Did his soul shatter again, is he on the verge of meeting yet another untimely end?
No. He just fell asleep, didn't he? Later than usual, yes, but...
Haruaki turns over his shoulder, every movement feeling like it must be done through waist-deep mud, and blinks blearily at– ]
Seimei-kun...?
[ Another blink. He is tired. When was the last time he was at rest? ]
Why are we here again?
hehe...
[What time is it? Seimei thinks he must know.]
You have something on your mind, don't you?
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Here and now, with all parts of his soul intact– ]
What if I just wanted to see you?
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[Seimei's head tilts to the side.]
Really? Just because?
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Yeah? Is that okay?
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[So... it isn't time yet, then. That's alright.]
This counts as being up past your bedtime though. Very naughty!
stop it :WHYYYYYYYYY:
[ Gently touches the tips of his index fingers together. The other him makes him feel so shy sometimes..... ]
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I often think of you when I fall asleep as well, Haruaki-kun.
[See?]
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You do...?
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What time is it?
[He slept once. He always knew.]Yes. Ever since I was young. I suppose you don't remember.
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[ . . .
Maybe there is something on his mind after all. ]
Can I be totally honest with you, Seimei-kun?
It feels unfair.
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[Yes. It is. Seimei nods, and Haruaki may go on.]
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[ Not to Haruaki. ]
You never got to live your life without all of that knowledge hanging over your head.
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I'm sure there have been times where I've felt that way.
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[ Which... he can be honest about, because Seimei already knows. He knows everything. ]
It would only make sense if there were times when you resented me, too.
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That's not what I said.
not that icon
You never did? Never?
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No. I don't envy that way.
[Truly, he doesn't. Haruaki is able to do what Seimei never could, and that's due as much to his ignorance as their shared soul. It's a good thing.
[What he resents...
[Well. That's all in the past.]
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Well, now I feel bad for admitting my own selfish feelings... sowwy...
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