He thinks of Ashiya Douman who lived as he died - furious, bright and chasing a specter. There was too much honesty between him and Seimei. Maybe that's what started this. Maybe that's what ended it. Maybe Seimei cultivated it to fulfil a goal no one could fathom, that goes beyond a god's grasp.
He thinks of Ashiya Douman and the principal who fell into old habits when a ghost brought him back into life.
Ranmaru hadn't known. Maybe he should have paid more attention during those years he was playing around. He promised to look after Douman because he was compelled by an ever tightening leash.
He promised to look after Douman because he couldn't stand how either of them had been played.
But Haruaki isn't Seimei, Douman isn't Ashiya. Douman is honest, furious, and bright still. Haruaki is-
Honest. Too honest. Too honest. Seimei was never honest and was. Couldn't be. Tried and failed and Haruaki succeeds where he never could and maybe that's why-
For a second, Ranmaru almost says how much he hates Seimei. For a second, Ranmaru almost falls victim to that bright, unyielding honesty and says he can't stand it. For a second, he thinks it would be comforting to utter out thousands of years of grief to a man that might hear him.
For a second, Ranmaru believes him - believes in him as much as he believed in Seiemei. ]
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He thinks of Ashiya Douman who lived as he died - furious, bright and chasing a specter. There was too much honesty between him and Seimei. Maybe that's what started this. Maybe that's what ended it. Maybe Seimei cultivated it to fulfil a goal no one could fathom, that goes beyond a god's grasp.
He thinks of Ashiya Douman and the principal who fell into old habits when a ghost brought him back into life.
Ranmaru hadn't known. Maybe he should have paid more attention during those years he was playing around. He promised to look after Douman because he was compelled by an ever tightening leash.
He promised to look after Douman because he couldn't stand how either of them had been played.
But Haruaki isn't Seimei, Douman isn't Ashiya. Douman is honest, furious, and bright still. Haruaki is-
Honest. Too honest. Too honest. Seimei was never honest and was. Couldn't be. Tried and failed and Haruaki succeeds where he never could and maybe that's why-
For a second, Ranmaru almost says how much he hates Seimei. For a second, Ranmaru almost falls victim to that bright, unyielding honesty and says he can't stand it. For a second, he thinks it would be comforting to utter out thousands of years of grief to a man that might hear him.
For a second, Ranmaru believes him - believes in him as much as he believed in Seiemei. ]